Found at 59th Street Subway Station, Brooklyn, March 23, 2006

I found this folded up on the subway platform last week, at 59th Street in Brooklyn. It is the work of what I assume to be a teenaged girl, as she deals lyrically with the loss of a boy's love. This was composed from 12/13/05 to 3/21/06. I call it by the title in the heart on the front of the page: "My Love for u is found 1nce in a lifetime."

Whoah, you may be thinking, I can't read all that. It's so tiny. Fear not, for I will transcribe it here. Note I would not do so if the lyrics were not so pure with angst and misery.

I had a woman named Vivian, at work, translate the Spanish sections. Note the following abbreviations: 1ce=once, ur=you are, etc. What text messaging has done to the English language!

And now, without further ado:


My Love for u is found 1ce in a lifetime

When you left I lost a part of me/Its been so hard 2 bealieve/come baq baby plz.

I swear by the moon and the stars in the sky/I'll be there/And I swear like a shadow thas by ur side/I'll be there.

Cross my heart/and tell no lie/no1 is leaving behind/Juss because/we sed goodbye.

I am your wifey/and u r my man/Let's just start all over/Pensalo bien [Consider this well].

Baby I noe/we've been going/through some pain/But the sun is always shining/even wen it rains.

I got it bad/wen u on the/phone u hang up/and u call right/Back.

Boy I hope you can see/We juss can't go on/Pretending that we get along/Boy how u not going 2 see it.

I'd give my all/It's never aright to say goodbye.

Cross my heart I do believe in my thought/and im my dreams I'll be taking u with me.

When you feeling lost in the night/when u feel ur world juss aint right/Count on me I me/I will b waiting/call for me/I will be there.

In Spanish: If I don't have you/may the whole world fall on top of me/may my paths be thorns/and may I burn in an inferno if you are not around.

My whole life has changed/since you came/I knew right then u were that special 1/im so in luv/u make ur life complete u r so sweet no1 competes/im glad u came into my life

I will cross the ocean for u/I will go and Bring you the moon/I will be your hero your strength/any thing you need/I will be your sun in the sky/I will light your for all time/Promise you for u I will.

That ends page 1, the flip side continues:

I can't sleep at night/when you are on my mind.

I swear I'll follow/A second chance wid u/I dont know wat to do/I'll probably check myself/In some kind of clinic/I couldn't b alone because without u I'm sick.

I'm thinking of you/I'm sleepless solitude tonight/If its wrong to love you/Then my heart just wont let me be right.

In Spanish: You want to dance and provoke/I get closer to give you/more and more/on the mouth I had to kiss you.

My love is all I have 2 give/without u I don't think I can live/I wish I could give the world to you.

Cross my heart and tell no lie/no1's leaving u beh8ng juss because we sed goodbye/Cross my heart I do believe/In my thoughts and in my dreams.

Love can be a many splendid thing/can't deny the joy it brings/dozen roses diamond ring/dreams for sale and fairy tale./It makes you here a symphony/And u juss want the world to C/well like a drug that makes u blind/It'll fool u evritime.

I'm feeling all out of my element/throwing things cryin/Tryin to figure where the hell I went wrong/the pain reflected in this song/aint even half of wot I'm feeling inside/I need ya Back in my life.

Its never a right time to say goodbye/but I have make first cuz if I don't/gunna start hating me/Cuz I dont feel the same way I 1ce felt about u/Boy Its not u its me/I gotta figure out wat I need.

I can have you 4 sure and/You'll loving me holding me kissing me/So boy dont tell me wat Im feeling is make believe.

I'll let BillyBlog readers absorb this and will discuss in part 2 of this post.

UPDATE 03/30/2006:

OK, I was already to analyze this piece of paper and the torutred lyrics.

You all know BillyBlog loves to show off stuff it finds.

When the page from yesterday's post was found last week, I was pretty ecstatic. Then I read it and thought it was juvenile, poorly-written, and sad. Then the pendulum swung the other way. I composed this for Thursday's post:

I'm glad I posted it and here is why:

"My Love for u is found 1ce in a lifetime" - I alluded to this yesterday, but I'll reiterate, this is quintessential high school, updated for the 21st century. The butchery/abbreviation of language is fascinating. Initially, I regarded it as a sign of, well, ignorance. You can't take the English major out of BillyBlog. But, upon closer examination, our unknown composer spells words correctly that had been previously abbreviated.

Also, despite the emotions, some of the imagery is quite evocative, especially the two Spanish "stanzas":

If I don't have you/may the whole world fall on top of me/may my paths be thorns/and may I burn in an inferno if you are not around.

and

You want to dance and provoke/I get closer to give you/more and more/on the mouth I had to kiss you.

Perhaps it is the fact that the words are translations that they seem more powerful. Perhaps I am reading too much into this.

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Then, something nagged me and I went to my friend google, where all things true are made true and all things false are revealed:

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Compare:

Love can be a many splendid thing/can't deny the joy it brings/dozen roses diamond ring/dreams for sale and fairy tale./It makes you here a symphony/And u juss want the world to C/well like a drug that makes u blind/It'll fool u evritime.

and

"Love can be of many splendid things
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses, diamond rings
Dreams for sail and fairy tails
It will make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind
It will fool you everytime"

Written by Kelly Clarkson/Evan Rogers/Carl Sturken

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Fabulous. BillyBlog has vetted itself.
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And it gets worse. Remember

I will cross the ocean for u/I will go and Bring you the moon/I will be your hero your strength/any thing you need/I will be your sun in the sky/I will light your for all time/Promise you for u I will.

There's this:

"I will cross the ocean for you
I will go and bring you the moon
I will be your hero your strengh
Anything you need
I will be the sun in your sky
I will light your way for all time
Promise you,
For you I will."

That's from a song called "For You I Will" by Monica.

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And my daughters ask me why I don't like pop. Uh, because it can pass as the angst-ridding whinings of forlorn teenagers.

I'd research all the other snippets, but I'm too busy being reminiscing about the time I spent transcribing the pages for BillyBlog. Time that could have been better spent cleaning my shower or contemplating my BillyButton.